One of my dearest friends sent me Savor this year for my birthday. I was a bit apprehensive as I don't have the best track record with daily devotions or journaling. I did my best to read consistently through October (there were a few nights where I had to read multiple days) and I'm loving how refreshed I feel. Even though it brought along fall and candy corn, October is always one of the longest months.
While I love my new position and living in New York City, I was moving at a pace that was a bit unsustainable which is not who I want to be. There were days, even weeks, where I felt like a collection of emails, posts, learning, budgets, and subways rides. My outreach to those I love had become targeted and purposeful and less authentic at times as I felt like I was trying to force being present when really I just needed to make time for me.
I wasn't savoring the moments and found myself starting to feel unhappy. Through reading Savor, I've become reconnected with what version of myself I most want to be. I've missed a few deadlines and realized that the world keeps spinning. I've gained a few pounds but I loved the moments of sharing meals with friends so I can't beat myself up over the gain. The apartment has been a mess, but I've loved my time reading each night.
While life does not have a pause moment, I want to be more mindful of pausing myself and enjoying the moments that create my life.
P.S. I recently purchased myself a DSLR camera and I kind of love it. I started carrying a larger bag so I can always have on me. As of now, my main subjects are Henry and leaves but I'm sure I'll be progressing soon. Stay tuned.